ArtificialFleshling

So, a thing you might not know about your favorite fat outer space cyborg is that I have a bad brain and a tendency to ride it like it's stolen.  I'm anxious, autistic, have a tendency to overextend myself, and am profoundly uncomfortable with emotional intimacy because I have Issues(tm). That's thing one. Thing two is that as a consequence of anxiety and autism, it is very difficult for me to feel secure in a community once I decide I'm a part of it because I'm always bracing for something to come, but I'm almost always bracing for the WRONG something to come because autism means it's difficult to read the room.  Not impossible: just diffi

Huh. New version of XNA/XPS drops around the time I start thinking about getting back on my bullshit. DAZ is fun and all, but sometimes you just want to make some cool fanart and XPS/Blender's very, very, very good for that. Time to get back on that and make sure I have my old Blender 2.78 because 2.8 doesn't seem to have a lot of the plug-ins I'd want/need.  At least not that I know of. I really need to do an upgrade or something.

I might start posting again. I've been in a place where I'm doing some art for myself again after a pretty impressive bit of burning out from life that sucked pretty hard due to a confluence of just nonsense happening all at once. Life's funny like that. And by "funny" I mostly mean "frustrating in a way that makes me want to scream" but that might be a little too personal than I want to be at the moment. Please don't send a bunch of DMs or anything like that. I'm not really able to be as active as I was before and unexpected direct contact fills me with a lot of incredibly stupid feelings. I don't really like it, but I gotta know my limits if I want to start having dA fun again. Hoping everyone's been cool while I've been away. I haven't been able to check in on people like I'd want.